Sunlight Chapter 3 - A Matthew Espinosa Fanfic

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3. Take the Punch: (Morgan’s POV)

I stayed in the alley until I saw Dave’s car drive away. Then I walked into the apartment like nothing ever happened. My mom was sitting on the couch watching TV, still smoking.

I went straight to my room. I laid on my purple bed and just thought. I thought about Matt first. Do I like him? Do I hate him? Do I just like him as a friend? I don’t know. But what I do know, is that I have no time for love.  My life is so complicated nothing else can fit in it. I don’t even know what love is. I’ll never know because no one loves me. I thought my dad did, until he moved to England to be with another woman.

No one could ever love a girl as annoying, clingy and depressed as me anyways. I have a bad habit of pushing people away. I just don’t want to get hurt anymore than I already am. I’m just so scared.

What did I ever do to Dave? Maybe my mom told him how she thinks of me and he’s helping her? I don’t know. I pull my shirt up and check the bruise from when Dave kicked me. It got bigger. It still hurts when I walk. It’s getting worse too. Just laying on my bed hurts. I know something is wrong with my side now. It’s probably just bruised ribs or something.

A stabbing pain rushes to my side as I sit up. I grasp it for about a minute. I look over at my clock and it’s already 8:30 PM. I got hungry so I left the apartment and walked to Chipotle about a mile away. I was limping and holding my side the whole way there. I walked in and bought my usual burrito with white rice, cheese, sour cream and chicken. I sat down and started munching on my delicious burrito.

I saw two tall guys walk in with a little blonde girl who was chatting away.

"NASH!! I want a taco!!!" the little girl yelled and turned to a boy with metallic blue eyes.

"OKAY!!" he yelled back.

"We’re not gonna get anything though. Matt and I already ate." Nash put his hands on his stomach. Matt? I looked at the guy behind Nash and Matt and I made eye contact.


I turned my head nonchalantly but fast. He was still wearing the same shirt but he now had a beanie on his head. He looked pretty attractive with it on.

A few seconds later someone sat across from me. I looked and it was Matt.

"Hi." I said shyly avoiding eyes contact.

"Hey Morgan. Long time no see." he replied with a smile.

"Yeah," I laughed.

"My friend Nash and his little sister Skylynn," he points at the cute blonde girl that I saw just a minute ago in line with Nash, "are in town and she really likes Chipotle, so I had to show them where one was in this town." Matt said trying to make conversation.

"She’s so cute," I mumble.

"Yeah she’s like the little sister I never had." Matt replied.

"Aw."

Right then, Nash and Skylynn came over and pulled a table next to us. Skylynn chose the seat next to me.


"Hi! I’m Skylynn! What’s your name?" her eyes shimmer with excitement.

"I’m Morgan. I like your shirt," I say pointing to her shirt with a horse on it that said, "Free".

"Thank you! Nashy got it for me. You’re very pretty," she talks with a southern accent.

"Thank you Skylynn! You’re very pretty yourself."

"Are you and Matt boyfriend and girlfriend?" she said making the blood instantly rush to my cheeks. I look over at Matt and he was giggling and teasingly smirking.

"No," I laugh, "we’re not dating."

Skylynn leaned closer to me and whispered, “Do you have a crush on Matt?” 

I looked over at Matt and Nash to see if they were listening. I had to think about how to answer this question. I could feel her eyes drilling into me.

I put my hand up to the side of my mouth getting ready to whisper into her ear.

"I think I might. But, Matt doesn’t know. I don’t think he has a crush on me though," I put my finger to my lips and shushed her. Skylynn laughed.

"Morgan has a crush on you Matt!" she screamed. Everyone in the restaurant stared at us. I tucked a piece of hair behind my ear looking down. I could feel everyone’s eyes still on me. I hear Nash laugh and tell Skylynn to be quiet.

I feel the blood rushing to my cheeks.

"No I don’t," I say through a laugh. Why would I tell Skylynn that? Ugh she’s only 5. I’m stupid.

I take a sip of my water. There’s a long awkward silence. I say that I have to go because it is already 9:30 PM. I stand up and throw away my trash. I hug Skylynn goodbye and tell Nash it was nice to meet him. I told Matt I would see him tomorrow. Then I rushed out the door.

The cold air hit my face. It felt good, the nice crisp autumn air. I could barely see where I was walking because it was so dark. I felt a tap on my shoulder as I walked on the sidewalk back to my apartment. I jumped a little. I turned to see Matt.

"Sorry, did I scare you?"

"No."

"Are you okay? You’re limping.” he asks with a worried voice.

"Um yeah I’m fine. I just ran into a table earlier." I reply.

"Oh okay. So about what Skylynn said…"

I cut him off, “I don’t like you haha she was kidding.”

"Oh. Well I just wanted to tell you that I liked you too. But if you don’t like me then it’s totally fine." He says with a disappointed face. Wait did he just say what I thought he just said?

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(Matt’s POV)

When Skylynn said that Morgan liked me, I was so happy that she liked me back. But when I caught up with her outside she said she didn’t. “Oh. Well I just wanted to tell you that I liked you too. But if you don’t then it’s totally fine.” Why did I just say that? Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. She just stares at me.

Morgan looks so perfect in the moonlight. The way her brown hair falls in front of her face. Her beautiful gray eyes shimmer along with the moonlight. I wish I could just kiss her right now. But I don’t.
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(Morgan’s POV)

I take a while to reply.

But when I do, I say, “Well then I might like you too?” I saw the corners of his mouth move up and that just made him look so cute.

"Morgan, will you be my girlfriend?" Oh my gosh. I can’t be his girlfriend. I don’t even know if I like him for sure. I don’t want to hurt him either. But I also don’t want to get hurt. I’ve only known him for a day. What if he turns out to be a completely different person? What do I say?

"Matt, I’m sorry but I just don’t have any room in my life right now for a boyfriend. I do like you. It’s just…" I burst into tears. Right then another stabbing pain makes its way to my side. I fall to the ground. Matt comes up next to me and puts his arm around me.

"Morgan! Are you okay?!" I hear him yell.

"Yeah. I-I’m fine," I say then stand up slowly with Matt’s help.

"You must’ve really ran into that table hard," Matt said.

"Y-Y-Yeah," I say stuttering. Matt guides me over to a nearby bench and we sit down.

"It’s fine that you don’t want a boyfriend right now," he says trying to pick up the conversation, "Just know that I’ll always be here if you ever need anyone."

"Thanks Matt. But I don’t get it," I say while biting my lip, holding back the tears.

"Don’t get what?" Matt questions.

"I don’t get how such a perfect guy could like a girl as stupid, annoying and depressed as me," I sob into Matt’s chest.

"You’re none of those things. You’re perfect, beautiful and amazing," he puts his hands on my cheeks and wipes away my tears with the pads of his thumbs.

"You’ve o-only known m-me for a-a day. Y-you don’t kn-know me. I’m depressed a-as fuck and I have a t-terrible family and my life is messed u-up. I just don’t want to exist. N-no one cares about me." I explain while still crying. I feel Matt’s hand moving up and down my back. It feels good to have someone here. It’s been a while since anyone was there for me.

"Morgan, that isn’t true. I care about you." At that moment I roll my sleeve up revealing my many scars.

"If anyone cared about me, do you really think that I would have these?" Matt holds my arms and pauses for a second. He then moves my arms close to his face and kisses every one of my scars. It sends chills down my back. I cry even harder. He pulls me in for a tight hug. I bury my face into his chest and inhale his scent. He strokes my hair.

"Shhh. It’s okay. Shhh."

Right then I see my brother wobbling down the street. I get up off the bench. I whisper to Matt, "That’s my brother Liam. H-he’s probably drunk," I get up off the bench and stare at the dark figure getting closer and closer.

"Morgan!" Liam slurs. He walks up to me land lifts his hand in a fist and Matt steps in front of me and takes the punch. I see his face turn after I hear the crack of something. He hit him in the jaw. Matt sat down holding his mouth.

"Matt! Liam stop!" Liam then kicks me in the same exact spot that Dave kicked me earlier. While I’m on the ground gasping in pain, Liam kicks my head and everything goes black.

~A/N Hope you guys liked chapter 3! Please inbox me your thoughts and feedback! Is anyone even reading this? lol ily all so much<3 

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troyler18:

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lemonadedoesnotmakeoranges:

I dont just do this with people I know. I try to help everyone 

I’ll always be here if you need someone.

Of course

I’d stay up for anyone whether I loved them or not.


anyone who sees this can talk to me i wont judge, or anything. You can just vent and I&#8217;ll try my best to help. Please just let me help. If you don&#8217;t want to talk to me, just know that i love you

troyler18:

yoursmileisamazing7:

menduhs:

lemonadedoesnotmakeoranges:

I dont just do this with people I know. I try to help everyone 

I’ll always be here if you need someone.

Of course

I’d stay up for anyone whether I loved them or not.

anyone who sees this can talk to me i wont judge, or anything. You can just vent and I’ll try my best to help. Please just let me help. If you don’t want to talk to me, just know that i love you